Entering adult life
Hello I'm Helen, 18, and this is my story. I've always been a perfectionist when it came to school and I always had anxiety about it (and other stuff) but I was able to control it or just avoid the situations that caused it. But everything changed when I entered the university. I never really had a certain goal in life, just wanted to be as good as I could be. I got accepted in medicine and even though at first I was excited, due to certain circumstances I started freaking out about it. I would wake up everyday with that weight on my chest, not being able to breathe, I would cry every night, I wasn't able to enjoy life anymore and my thoughts just wouldn't leave. I felt like I was dead inside, living in hell. Thankfully, I visited a therapist and later a psychiatrist who prescribed me antidepressants for my anxiety disorder and depression. I have been taken them for 3 weeks now, even though I was hesitant at first, and I just want to say that they are the best thing that ever happened to me. I know they don't work for everyone, but they have done wonders for me. I don't know how and where I would be now If I hadn't taken them. I also know that they aren't my cure, I have to search for those answers I need in order to live life without them. I have a long way to go but I am sure I will get through this someday. Whoever is reading this, I want you to know that you will get through it, become stronger, just don't give up.