My struggle with my anxiety disorder and OCD
My name is Katie. I am 14 and have been living with bad anxiety since I was 9. It started when I was in the hospital and had multiple asthma attacks and had to get tons of shots!
I shared a room with a girl who was coughing a lot so she could breath. After I got released, whenever my mom drove by the hospital I would sweat and have such a feeling of sudden dread. I would cry, then scream because of what happened to me there but I eventually grew out of that.
A few weeks later we had our standardized testing. I started crying and couldn't focus the whole time. Then one day during class, a kid started coughing and my anxiety got worse. I screamed and ran out of the room in fear he would throw up on me and I would get sick. I started missing school over it. My mom got really worried and took me to a doctor. They gave me medicine and it started working really well for about a year.
Last December, I was babysitting and one of the kids threw up. I ran home crying. I didn't eat, in fear I would throw up and I didnt eat for three days. I weighed myself and had lost over five pounds. My mom then put me on more medicine.
Last friday during cheerleading someone told me that the stomach bug was going around my school. I called my mom and broke down crying. I again did not eat. I woke up in the middle of the night crying and would walk around my house by myself until I was so tired; I knew I would fall asleep right away so I wouldn't have time to think about anything.
I have been having a really hard time. To help me get through it I take warm baths. Water is really calming to me. I look at pictures of warm sunny beaches and imagine myself there. I also pray and I write my feelings down on paper then rip the paper and throw it away.
I hope no one has to go through this and if you are having bad problems like me, I suggest sitting down with a loved one. They will help!