Fear of developing a Compulsion
For the last month I've been dealing with intrusive sexual thoughs. At first I was very scared of them, they made me feel guilty. Now I understand they are nothing to fear and just let them be. For the most part it helps and they don't bother me as much. Today my anxiety level was a bit high and my intrusive thoughts popped in. Suddenly I had this fear that I'd develop a compulsion. That I'd somehow want to touch my genitals. The thought of developing compulsions causes me anxiety.
Obviously like any intrusive thought I can't seem to let this fear go. Just wanted to know, can you develop compulsions by thinking of them on purpose, or is it just my anxiety playing a trick on me?