Obsessive Thoughts Taking over my Life
Hey All, I'm 20 and have been experiencing anxiety and obsessive thoughts for the past 6 years. Recently it has become worse. I have this obsessive fear that someone is out to hurt or even kill me. It runs through my mind all day and night and the more I try to convince myself its not true the worse it gets. I tend to analyze situations that have arose in the past with people and connect it to the "what ifs's" now. I had been bullied throughout High School and it has followed me to college. About 2 years ago I had a problem with another kid and he seemed to give me a hard time and hate me for no reason. My mind keeps obsessing about this because I'm afraid to run into him at school. The way my mind thinks is that he keeps giving me problems because he wants to kill me but, in reality I think he's just being a bully and really doesn't care at all about me? I have also received a blocked phone call with my name about a year ago saying my name and that I owed them money and they were going to kill me which has made my anxiety skyrocket. I don't owe anyone money, it sounded like a prank or foreign fake call, and I never heard from it again. I'm wondering if anyone else has gone through anything similar to this. I read these articles and say wow that's exactly how I think yet, my mind tells me that my situation is different and that my fears of being killed are real. I do have a great life but, these thoughts are taking control and I can't stop them. Help please!