Things all started 3 years ago. I found out I had testicular cancer, had it cured in surgery. But now my wife will not become intimate with me (no sex 3 years). She is fearful she would get it. I'm really getting down with this - caught her lying to me about things she didnt have to lie about. Then I had a minor stroke last year - not once she asked me how I was feeling... just "when is your next insurance check coming?". Now I just lost my job and she ignores me. Everyone tells me that she loves me very much. I have 3 kids and that's what makes me happy, after that I just want to end it all. I forget how to be truely happy. I stay because if i leave things will get worse. I can't handle much more.